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hi!! i'm nate. somehow you found this. (maybe through me directly linking or my dreamwidth?) congrats lmao you win the prize (which is nothing except getting to know me better) anyway i'm glad that you made it and have decided to start learning a little bit more about mei tried to make this site as comprehensive as possible but i also kinda don't know what people want to know about?? so if you have any other questions or info you think should be added, please contact me thru discord/DMs/wherever else you know me fromit's a pretty safe assumption that this site is just perpetually unfinished because i can never think about what i want to write about on things like thisalso omg i actually updated this like 6 months after making it because someone reminded me it existed on dreamwidth hell yeasite was updated 2024-04-11
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| ㅤracistㅤ including thinking white people can be oppressed for being white |
| ㅤanti-lbgtq+ㅤ including people who think bisexuals can only be attracted to two genders |
| ㅤsexistㅤ including thinking men can be oppressed for being men |
| ㅤableistㅤ including anti self-dx |
| ㅤright wingㅤ any kind |
| ㅤDIDㅤ pro-endogenic, anti-system, thinks DID doesn't exist, is going to get pissed off at me about characteristics that i can't control in alters like gender, race, religion, etc, thinks fictional introjects don't exist or are "cringe" (i don't have any but it shows you don't know anything about DID lmao) |
| ㅤmiscㅤ body policing/fatphobic, pro contact pedophile or "MAP", uses slurs you can't reclaim, jokes about abuse of any kind, any other asshole behavior |
| BASICS |
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| ㅤnameㅤ nate |
| ㅤageㅤ 33 (millennial) - bday is june 18 |
| ㅤlocationㅤ generic tiny town (dallas metro), texas, US |
| ㅤpronouns/genderㅤ it/its (primary) and he/him (secondary), agender transmasc |
| ㅤsexualityㅤ bisexual (all genders) |
| ㅤrelationshipㅤ married |
| ㅤraceㅤ white |
| ㅤreligionㅤ buddhist |
| ㅤpoliticsㅤ leftist & serious about it |
| ㅤmtbiㅤ ENFJ |
| ㅤoccupationㅤ training specialist - ophthalmology research studies |
| ㅤsystem roleㅤ host/handles depression? |
| ㅤstrengthsㅤ natural leader, good listener, empathetic, socialization, careful, charismatic |
| ㅤweaknessesㅤ easily depressed, low energy, slow working, clumsy, intense, uncompromising |
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some other random stuff about me igi'm Deaf! i wear hearing aids but they don't work super well, so i learned (and am still learning) ASL. i love attending Deaf events and making Deaf friends here in dallasi'm trans! i've known i was trans ever since i hit puberty, but i only fully transitioned IRL in 2018. i got on T in early 2018 & got top surgery in late 2020. i'm pretty happy with where i'm at now. my gender is kind of just a shrug emoji, but i am DFAB & present as masculinei have DID and it's a pretty big part of my life! at least it affects my life a lot. i wrote more about it on the "warnings" page
my relationship
elias!! we met in 2015 and got together romantically in early 2016. we've been living together happily since 2017 :) technically we aren't married yet but we call each other spouses bc we are functionally married. i also took his last name when i got my legal name change. and we bought a house together so i guess you can say we are pretty serioushe is my heart, life, & soul! i love him more than anything in the world. i know it's cheesy, but i don't even have the words to explain how much he means to me. we have been through so many ups & downs and i know we are going to grow old and be grumpy old people together lmaohe proposed to me january 2024, and we are currently planning our wedding :)
my pets
i have a rat terrier (born 2015) whose name is toni, a chiweenie (born 2013) named ava, and a siamase (born 2018)! we also just adopted a new kitty named maru (born 2023)i know it's a millennial stereotype but they are truly my babies and i would do anything for them <3elias also has a cute snake named baba!
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| CURRENTS |
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| ㅤhobbiesㅤ keyboards |
| ㅤspecial interestㅤ torrents, ASL |
| ㅤgame balatro |
| ㅤlearningㅤ ASL |
| LONG-TERM SPECIAL INTERESTS |
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| these are my (autistic) long-term special interests! these are the things that i tend to hyperfocus on and have been very interested in usually since childhood. i do cycle through random special interests here and there if something catches my eye tho, but these are the ones that i am Stuck With Forever (trust me, i've tried to escape) |
| ㅤmarine lifeㅤ the ocean and especially octopuses and cephalopods - since i was old enough to know what an octopus was |
| ㅤidolsㅤ especially hello!project (since 2002) but basically all idols except 48g |
| ㅤjapanㅤ culture, language, everything (since 2003 or so) |
| ㅤpinkㅤ pink is a literal lifestyle for me, i don't think anyone has ever been as attached to a color as i am to pink |
| HYPERFIXATIONS |
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| here are the things that i tend to hyperfocus on! (ADHD style) these are usually things i've been hyperfocused on for years. not as hardcore as special interests for better or worse. in no particular order |
| HYPERFIXATIONS |
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| ㅤminimalismㅤ especially digital minimalism |
| ㅤtechnologyㅤ audio hardware and software/production, keyboards/typing, web development |
| ㅤpiratingㅤ yeah if you want to find something i can probably find it. i'm also big into private trackers and have a seedbox |
| ㅤjapanese & translationㅤ i am N3 for "generating" (speaking, writing, EN to JP translation), N2 for "consuming" (listening, reading, JP to EN translation) |
| ㅤaslㅤ so i can actually communicate with other people |
| HOBBIES |
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| regular old hobbies. i usually cycle through these. in no particular order... def not a comprehensive list bc that would be impossible, i have too many hobbies |
| ㅤvidyaㅤ binding of isaac, simulation games, picross, the walking dead game, horror games, speedrunning, rhythm games, clickers, shitty mobile games |
| ㅤother gamesㅤ sudoku, crosswords, jigsaw puzzles |
| ㅤmusicㅤ check out my fave songs playlist on spotify |
| ㅤarts & craftsㅤ cross-stitching, latchhook, journaling (especially MAMBI), calligraphy |
| ㅤcreativityㅤ singing, writing, playing bass |
| ㅤtechnologyㅤ i'm interested in all other tech along with what's listed under hyperfixations |
| ㅤcomedy & youtubeㅤ usually commentary YTers like kurtis conner but i also like markiplier |
| ㅤaestheticsㅤ pink/girly/kawaii, retrowave, guro kawaii |
| ㅤmiscㅤ coffee, going out to eat, lolita fashion |
note: this list is not comprehensive. this is just main fronters. i will add their pages later as they finish them.
me! (host)
it/its & he/him
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noah (protector)
he/him
anastasia (gatekeeper)
she/her
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lucian (emotion - anger)
he/him
richard (emotions releaser)
he/him
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seven (organizer)
she/her
xenos (observer)
he/his or any
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three (reaper)
she/her or any
biyo - okamura minami (kami)
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ocha - yonemura kirara
mm - sakurai rio
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golden - kago ai
anju - matsumoto wakana
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platinum - kusumi koharu
j=j - kudo yume
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colorful - iikubo haruna
| MENTAL STUFF |
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| here's a brief list of mental stuff that i have that may affect my interactions with you |
| ㅤDIDㅤ all of my alters pretend to be me. if you validate them & bother to ask who is fronting, you can speedrun to bff level |
| ㅤmemoryㅤ DID comes with amnesia. i often will not remember what you told me unless you tell me multiple times. i'm not trying to be offensive, it just is what it is |
| ㅤADHDㅤ well medicated & controlled but i may accidentally ignore you or fuck up the flow of conversations or drop projects easily |
| ㅤdepressionㅤ usually pretty bad. i do my best to stay medicated & am constantly fighting w/it but it will give me low energy & low spoons |
| ㅤautismㅤ this probably won't affect you much bc i've found ways around it but i do tend to blah blah about random bs |
| TRAUMA AND TRIGGERS |
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| ㅤPSTDㅤ i have childhood trauma related to the following and probably won't be super happy if you decide to talk about it: CSA, physical abuse, emotional abuse, former substance abuse, eating disorders, probably more i'm not remembering |
| ㅤfamilyㅤ i am no contact with my mother. the only other family i talk to is my brother (my only sibling) & my father |
| ㅤand more!ㅤ i am 100% forgetting a ton of shit just because i have an awful memory (by design ig with dissociation) so i'll maybe have some other alter come in and fill this in |
| OTHER HEALTH BULLSHIT (DIAGNOED) |
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| ㅤsleepㅤ i hardly ever sleep & when i do it's not really productive bc i get night terrors from trauma. so i'm probably grumpy most of the time. i also get sleep paralysis fairly regularly |
| ㅤhearingㅤ i have severe hearing loss and am Deaf. i wear hearing aids to help me |
| ㅤeating disorderㅤ i have a restrictive eating disorder. i try not to talk about it but sometimes it ends up happening anyway. sry about that |
| ㅤOCDㅤ lots of stupid rituals and obsessive thinking |
| ㅤmiscㅤ agoraphobia, bipolar type 2 |
| SUSPECTED HEALTH BULLSHIT |
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| ㅤfibroㅤ i have the symptoms for this but i'm too tired to get diagnosed |
| ㅤsleep apneaㅤ see above |
| ㅤmentalㅤ dyslexia, compulsive purging |
just some random memes i like :)
